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Lost...You're Lost..."I don't trust me, for loving you"
I wish I had the nerve to tell you to your face,
To put what I mean into sound, that you can understand and treasure…
You're lost…
Just like everyone else…
But no one knows how to help the other…

"This is more than I can give"
No, I'll give you all I can…
Because I care about you…
Because I want to be with you…..
And you're lost….
A lot like me…

Why is everything so complicated….
Where is my heart…
I do believe it's in your hand,
Tattooed on your skin, on your sleeve….
You're lost….And I can't be your light…
I'll bring the

My Label/ Hi, My Name Is...Sometimes I think I need to wear a label,
A sticker,
A collar,
A tag…

That will tell you what is wrong with me…

"Hi, My Name Is:
Easily loving, falls to quickly, doesn't know when to stop, tries her best but can't succeed, and only wants to hold someone's hand… to feel that hand on her shoulder when she cries…"

The ink would be smudged across as if written in haste, a couple letters bolded in spots as if trying to fix a mistake…So many mistakes…

The edges would be peeling as if to forget I ever existed all together…
Sometimes, I think I need to wear a warning…

So you will know ahead of time th

You, Just YouYou…..you make me think of,
Soothing lavender-colored cloth,
Twinkling indigo, midnight skies,
The first taste of autumn in a warmed coffee cup,
Hazel scented steam twisting everywhere…
Fiery eyes of gold and dreams of silver hair,
A glinting smile, a smirk….

The softest touch,
And inked vines coiled across softer skin,
Sleeping lilies and koi fish across bronze tinted plates,
And the comforting hand, the reassuring gesture,
For fear of metallic insanity….

Peeking from behind silver scales,
Towering above like sharpened swords,
Smiling to myself,
I watch your careful eye,
The weight of your shoulder against

We go to sleepI go to sleep to dream about you
I go to sleep to hide from the truth
I want to lock my pain out of my life
I lost myself between written lines

You go to sleep to forget about me
You go to sleep to hide from your fears
Inside of the cage you lost your own pulse
Inside of the dream you don't care about rules

We go to sleep to dream about us
We go to sleep to reach out for the stars
We go to sleep to never stop
We go to sleep just to wake up….

Internal ConflictINTERNAL CONFLICT

I'M SO AFRAID
OF WHAT IT WILL SAY.
I WISH NOT TO OPEN
THIS THING,
THIS TERROR.
I WISH NOT TO SEE
ITs CONTENTS,
ITS MURDEROUS CONTENTS
WHAT IF I CAN'T HANDLE IT?
WHAT IF IT HURDLES ME
INTO A DEPRESSION
SO DEEP
I CAN NEVER GET OUT?
I WANT TO SEE IT SO BAD.
I HAVE TO KNOW WHAT'S IN IT.
I'M DYING TO KNOW WHAT'S IN IT.
BUT I JUST CAN'T LOOK.
I'M SO AFRAID.

What IfWhat if you had succeeded last year
Took enough to make your world go black
Those three words I would never hear
The friendship we wouldn't have got back

What if I hadn't asked to see you
Had already moved on
Did you want to see me too
Or were you already too far gone

What if you hadn't decided I was important again
I was only a vague memory
Where would we have needed to begin
For you to remember me

What if we hadn't got back together
Would we be better friends
Forget about you, I could never
I don't want this to be the end

Era Of Silence

Era Of Silence

Cascading glares swim around my whole body
Searching for some kind of flaw that I might have
But they don't realize that my life is the problem entirely
I can hardly keep on hiding all of the imperfections I secretly grasp

Denial is simple / If you say so
Pretending is impossible / I can't let you know

So I no longer speak for myself
No, not anymore
I feel that I deserve this hell
My pure torture
-
I'm just too snared by the knives in my back
No one wanted to accept me for who I really was
That's why I had no choice but to put up this wounded act
But I guess that's what the feeling of losing everybody do

Insomnia and Body PartsThere were
Timeless moments spent between us,
In those instants and hours before dawn;

That time when we traversed
So far away from this
Wretched house and into
The most delicious darkness
Of Andromeda-

That time before our tidal waves
Came crashing down on us again.

I would do anything to
Drown with you.

The softness of the flesh
Between your knuckles, the
Exquisite map of
Leigh-lines
On your palms;

They were like a lullaby
To my sleepy fingertips.

You used
The breath of your mouth
To teach me to close my eyes
And fall asleep.

Your contented whispers and
Observations of the sky
Showed me then how to dream.

I had no id

InsanityI'm not afraid of insanity
I welcome it as my good friend

Every night were fighting for our lives
Every night I survive

Love
Hatred and
Sorrow I amplified

Lived to make you laugh
Now I make you cry

Six feet underground
I lay still without a sound
Only the silent company
of Insanity

Final SurrenderI can't take this any more
every breath I take burns my lungs
like acid in my throat
gagging me
and rendering me speechless
So I cannot scream
when life comes for me again
and holds my head under the surface
so I drown in my own pain

Every moment I am alive
is a moment more that I am condemned
to live with the agony
of knowing that I am not real
but a shadow of something that once was

because someone reached inside me
and grasped my innocence with their filthy hands
before they ripped it from me
making every fibre of my being scream
and writhe as if I had been set on fire
and I was left to suffer
an empty and torn being
robb

Apple TreeThere on top of the hill,
sits a little apple tree.
With the best one you will ever see,
but on the inside is sour.
Then there is little neglected ugly me,
who has a taste as sweet as can be.

Everyone wants to pick the other,
while no one looks at me.
They go to her every day,
I just sit and rot away.

One time someone saw me,
but just threw a rock my way.
Just some days,
I wish I was the other apple.

Then finally one day,
someone stops and looks at me.
Really looks and doesn't cause pain.
My only question is,
will I finally be picked over the other?

A Year AgoI can't believe it was a year ago,
that you stole my first kiss.
For once in a long time,
I felt wanted by some one.

A year ago I had my first date,
who really swept me off my feet.
You held me close,
and did not want to let go.

A year ago I was told I love you,
I told it right back to you.
I did not want to leave you,
but we had to go back to class.

Now back to the present,
to where you left me.
We hardly even talk,
just because out of no where,
you went and did this to someone else.

Leave me AloneGet out
get out
I don't want you to see me like this
mascara bleeding down my face
eyes burning red with tears
hair messy and unbrushed
I haven't been outside in days

All I've done is sit here
thinking about how easy it would be to end all my pain
right here and now
and I would never look back
I don't want you here
you will keep me from doing it
you will bar my escape
and break my wings
calling yourself my saviour
and telling me its for my own good
when you have doomed me to live
alone and scarred
branded and forgotten
mistreated and abused
and forced to remember every moment

don't say you are helping me
get out
get out

StillSeems like searing silence
Burns like screaming violence...

Is this relief
I find in grief?

The old days drifting through my head
And I should really go to bed
But I'm not with you....
Oh, there was nothing I could do

So I've been sitting here alone,
There's not a single thing I own
Yet if I try to change,
...I know I'll fade...

And I know these thoughts are broken,
And my heart is cracked wide open
You might reach inside...
...To see what you find...
But I am still empty,
All false promises of plenty

But what did you say...?
'There was no other way...'

Yes, I know I hide
Because...A part of me has died
There is no way t

WantsI want to be the dark abyss
Absorbing your chest cavity,
I want to be the one you miss
That holds you under gravity,
I want to be the deadly kiss
That settles your fatality

I want to be the broken veil
To sabotage the last good thing,
I want to be the things you fail
That finalize your will for trying
I want to be the hidden trail
That leads you to find everything

I want to be the last regret
That haunts you throughout every ring,
I want to be the dreary set
That gloomy sullenness would bring,
I want to be the thought of death
That savors all your suffering

I want to be the lies you tell
That lead you through your false de

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Screamed her pain.

by *EveDaniels, Nov 16, 2012, 12:41:12 AM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

I'm tired and I'm a basket case of pity.
Don't look at me.
Don't talk at me.
You can't see me.

I want to close my eyes and invade in my inner city.
Don't dare wake me.
Please hold onto me…
No… you can't see me.

Yes you do see me…
I'm so blind that I'm chaotic.
Wake me! Embrace me! Please!
Can you really see me?

I do want to go to bed.
I'm so weary…
Hold me please…
Notice me…

No.
You can't see me…
Don't mock me…
Please help me…

I won't be able to speak of logic.
I am emotional.
I can't feel me.
I can't hear me.

Please…
Look at me…
Don't fret, and just hold me.
Please… even though… we can't see me.